Wednesday, August 17, 2011
On my way home and i've decided that i should blog.
Okay, i have blocked every single ppl i've known from YSA. Well, thats cause i want my life to be more private. I got alt of things to deal with and i dont think anyone truly understand what i am going through.
Exams exams, biophysics FT is over and i can guarantee you, that i wont get a B. Thus that means no more uni for me, unless i buck up real hard for next semester, which means, less play, more studying. I got to keep focus u know? On top of that i am sure that my commis will be graded as B/C and ENPS a C. I suck at presenting and pracrical. Seriously need to get my head in the game.
Thus, i really wanna be a part of YSA but i know it will also be a disttaction for me, cause not doing the assign task given in JC makes me worried and i feel bad. And my heart be spilt into two, not giving full attention to both work i am supposed to do. But without JC will i still be the same catholic girl i am today?
I've got much to pownder about, as a student, i really feel that education is my top pirority and not doing church work. It's not like i am saying i am totally given up on God, because i know i still love him and the covenant can never be broken. Any idea what should i do? I need advice before i start making this nig dissicion to quit or stay on.
But for now, i'm putting my ministry work on hold, so that i can focus on my exams. I am afraid of dailing and not getting the ideal gpa, but worst come to worst, next sem i am gonna be a nerd. And i dont care what ppl say. And thats just the way i roll. :)
Gambatte!:)
5:20 PM
