Friday, July 29, 2011
its been another week, din see him around in school.:(
school have been pretty hectic, lets just say with all the amount of practical lessons and test.
i can just kill myself, i am a failure at practical, literally.
i burnt the circuit, the plastic covering of the wire. not to mention my wire cutter.
thats how noob i am at practical. on top of that during eltech practical,
the teacher gave me extra time, and yet i was unable to complete it!
gosh! exams are around the corner:(
save me pls!
9:20 PM
Sunday, July 24, 2011
this few days has been great. mum aint around.
fri,
terry came to surprise me at ngeeann! i was jumping
mad, running around the campus like a crazy little child. till i saw him, my whole mood changed. it was an awkward sight, obviously. din know if i should be happy or sad. decided, to went to terry's house at night. we chit-chat, reminisce the past and talked about the future. not to forget, Pam gian was with us too. she was the one who lied to me just to get terry to NP, to surprise me!:D I LOVE YOU!:D i'm so sorry Pam, i know u hate lying. butt... U PASS! at least u practice a new skill, the skill of
lying!:D ,
i bump into him a couple of times that day. hopefully he din see how foolish we were cam-whoring in the library and the bus stop. i bet aeron was embarrassed by us three, crazy girls. but thanks for helping us take the pics!:D
sat,
mum ain't home. started on my dreaded report, IC 555. headed to church after zillion of days, i miss it. i got to admit, but the urge of quitting is huge with the piles of work being thrown at me. went for e.c, father Gerard's homily was a reminder that i should never quit because i know i'll go back to God no matter what. especially when i am in a depressing mood, so why quit, when you can always have him throughout your life. he is there to help, comfort me when i'm down. share my joy when i am happy. after e.c, me and geri decided to bring Gwen out for an early birthday treat, obviously our parents din know about it till later, they weren't around, how awesome can that be?
teenagers are meant to break some rules, aren't we?
get into trouble once in a while?
Sunday was kinda mundane as i was stuck with my report, obviously not much was done on Saturday. oh well, pon meeting:) finally i get a whole Sunday to myself. i wanted to go for guitar lesson, badly but i really couldn't i was glued to my chair, staring at the horrible REPORT! oh well, life of an ongoing school kid i would say. sacrifices are required to be made in order to get work done. the only highlight was when the squires came, my only break from my report.
on a lighter notw, i am almost done with the report, just that i'm unsure of a certain part.
guess i'll leave it blank and ask my friends around before i work on it. i should really get going. TO STUDYYY other modules and prepare for a TEST tomorrow:(
9:57 PM
Friday, July 22, 2011
i'm blogging like every single day.
maybe because i just need to pour my heart out somewhere.
cause i don't wanna speak about certain stuff.
i'm stressed up, this week has been hectic. three test. one presentation.
what bout next week, two practical test, one test, and a report due (haven't started).
the week after, presentation, hopefully no more test.
not forgetting I've yet to redo my lesson plan.
if only time could stretch from 24 hours to 50 hours a day.
i guess thats just how i roll now,
monday to friday - wake up, school, study, sleep with a tiny bit of fun every once in a while.
sat - cat class, study, mass.
sun- (junior cat meeting?) ,study, guitar lesson(only fun time).
why '(junior cat?)' ?
i cant cope. i have the urge to quit.
at the same time, if i quit i'm afraid my faith will go down the drain.
i will change for the worst. just look at me now, i'm starting to used vulgarities, going back to those good old days where i din bother about my religion.
i'm thinking if i should shun u away from my life completely,
you don't seem to bother anymore.
12:04 AM
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
If i could, i would leave house.
You say this and that. You are the one who gave me the permission to go overseas right? And now yr complaining? What the shit is wrong with you? Screw loose? If u know u gonna hav problems with me going, u should have not have given me the green sign to go right?
Damn you and ur nonsence. I cant even find peace to study. Are u trying to create a new baggage in my already eff-up life?
Wgy i'm using vulgarities?
I am freakin pissed at you. I am stress. I got too many problems. I am tired. I dont habe the mood to joke. I lost someone. I miss church. My brain is wired up. Everything is messy. She dosent talk. He dosent care. You dont understand us.
Quick leave singapore so i can find peace. And now i got to suffer and wake upsuper early in the morning so. I dont need to endure ur nonsence.
Gonna try my best to pray to sleep.
P.s i saw him during engmech practical.
11:17 PM
Waiting for HP to start! Damn exciteddd:)
I think i am better, though i still think of him. Its still very often. But at least i dont emo and all. Maybe cause i have company with me most of the time. But when i'm by myself things are different.hope ur doing fine with yr studies.
I must not tell lies, right harry? Hahaha.
I miss watching hp with terry! We used to buy sneak preview ticks at gv! And scream like those fangirls when the movie start. Miss those time. Miss stc girls:(
But i'm stressed up. The question bout quitting junior cat keep popping into my head. God save me! Bring me back to you!
3test, 1presentation, 1report i a week is no joke. Not forgetting i got a pile of work cause i negleted my studies during king and i.:( what shld i do?
11:10 PM
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
baby cuzzie came over just now! his so cutee^^
played with him and now i'm too lazy to continue to study. :(
i am gonna flunk biophysics at this rate. how?
i'm so scared seriously.
mechanics practical tomorrow,
u know what that means?
11:52 PM
Monday, July 18, 2011
i'm annoyed, damn annoyed with everything.
why cant u give her the damn laptop?
whats ur problem!?
you say you need to quickly go home. liar.
you walk so slow.
wthhh.... go die.
11:42 PM
Waiting for HP to start! Damn exciteddd:)
I think i am better, though i still think of him. Its still very often. But at least i dont emo and all. Maybe cause i have company with me most of the time. But when i'm by myself things are different.hope ur doing fine with yr studies.
I must not tell lies, right harry? Hahaha.
I miss watching hp with terry! We used to buy sneak preview ticks at gv! And scream like those fangirls when the movie start. Miss those time. Miss stc girls:(
But i'm stressed up. The question bout quitting junior cat keep popping into my head. God save me! Bring me back to you!
3test, 1presentation, 1report i a week is no joke. Not forgetting i got a pile of work cause i negleted my studies during king and i.:( what shld i do?
8:31 PM
Sunday, July 17, 2011
AHHH!
do i look like a drug addict? father call me that today-_-
wth. haiz. lesson plan, kill myself pls.
i feel like quitting again. whats up with my mixed emotion?
up. down,up,down. like a roller coaster only.
gonna go for guitar later!:D OOPS I DIDNT PRACTICE.
uncle clement is gonna kill me, i still cant differentiate
between uncle clement and uncle kenny-_-
ahhh! u found my blog. I"M BUSTED.
lol. congrats to you!
gonna play tetris with my sister via fb,
soghurt with rachel tomorrow hopefully:)
and harry potter with my family tomorrow..
not looking forward to the rest of the week!
TEST ON WED,THURS,FRI!
GOD PLS GIVE ME STRENGTH!
6:38 PM
Saturday, July 16, 2011
My mum is a fucking biatch. No wpnder my sis keeps things away from her. I totally understand now.
She told me not to go church to often as i am too weak, so i decided to take time to relax and hang out with my friend. So when i am officially well i'll be able to continue church stuff. But what i get in return? Scolded from coming home late. It was only 11.30p.m! Its not like i never reached home later. You know whats her excuse, that time i was in a relationship or i was in church. Wth! So i am treated differently deepending on what i do?
Didnt u said not to compare? What rubbish! She dont even know that she is contracdicting herself-_-
Gosh! And my mum should start acting like a normal mother and stop trying to be funny around her kids freinds its just uncool!
She better start changing or else i am gonna keep my life private and start to lie to you. I dont really care if i am rebelious anymore. Its not like ur a good mother!
12:37 AM
Friday, July 15, 2011
I'm in school waiting for biophysics to start. Blogging via my phone:) awesome right? I'm beside siying and with two other classmates. Still cant rmb their names cause its chinese names. I suck as a classmate, i know much. -_-
Oh well, been trying to forget you, but ur still somewhere lingering in my mind or else why would i be blogging bout u right?
U dont reply my messages :( sadded. Do u eve treasuee our friendship? It meant quite alot to me in sec 4. When we used to text each other on the way to school, during and after school. Rmb?
Oh well, hopefully u'll reply soon, or a friendship of almost three years is going down the drain. I hate that feeling. I've been through it time and time again.
On a lighter note, i found my class! :)
7:47 AM
I found something damn intresting to me! Lmao-_- seriously. Oh well, i should go sleep.
Sian ahhhh! Got some retreat to go on august30th. Is it exam period? Somehow i dont feel like going -_- something aint right with me. Starting to dread church again... Haizz
I cant cope with my life seriously. I need to learn to balance out.
Had an awesome day with gian gian and aeron!:) pepper lunch:) woohoo:)
7:40 AM
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
re- reading my post made me realize i din write anything much bout us.
and i do not want those memories to fade.
so here it goes it was April 11 that u ask me to be yours,
u planned it out so well, and i think it was the fifth time i saw u so far in my life even though i knew u since sec 4. we watched a movie called just go with it. i could tell u kept looking at me. hilarious:) and my church friend sat in front of us. before the movie, we had a few hours to waste so we went sentosa. :) it was fun. we took a pic( u gave it to me in a card, for our second month).
watched the movie. walk around vivo. went out to look at the scenery and that was when u asked. i knew my reaction was unexpected. i'm sorry. but i din know u felt the same:) i was glad. :) then we talked for a while telling me how u actually plan about asking me and about when u liked me:) u even remembered all those time we communicate via sms that i dont recall-_- .
we went out on val day, u sent me home:) even though u stay so farr away from me:(
sorry. i stayed at woodlands and you stay at bedok.
i remember you came to woodlands to fetch me, when out to orchard to catch another movie, and u sent me home again!:D cant believe u did that. i was touched.
on top of that, i went to ur house, went out with you ur sis and ur grandma!:D
u came to my church twice!:D
sooner or later school started and we drift apart:( apparently being in the same school din really help. but i met u almost every Monday for lunch and i usually looked forward to it. oh and we had the same commis teacher. and every alternate wednesday a get to catch a glimpse of you. it was better than nothing:)
but things changed after a while, we stopped talking for a while, we were too busy for each other and we broke up:( heart-broken. oh well, at least what we had was awesome! you'll be in my heart<3
rmb how we met? via msn through a certain mutual friend of ours?
it was hilarious. how they teased u to be gay:)
we had same interest, survivor, amazing race and the love for purple.
u were having o's and we made a deal to hang out after yr o's to find you a purple shirt.
and we did! except that i had to rush back for something else:(
reminiscing us:)
wonderwall...
p.s if only we had more time together. i seriously think we'll last:)
4:49 PM
Monday, July 11, 2011
dear blog,
i'm more or less alone in school, well at least the other person i know who is within reach from me is ...no one but myself!:D
listening to wonderwall, u know why?
cause it reminds me bout you!
(the time at sentosa when u ask me to be your gf)
just a few months back in feburary on the exact same date.
i can tear anytime seriously just thinking about us.
and the cards u wrote is still with me.
cant bear to throw them.
care bears reminds me of you too.
i'm sorry for ignoring u, i'm sorry for screwing things up.
i don't know what got to me during that period of time.
i admit i wanted to break up when i was with you, but i'm regretting it.
and i rmb how much a crush i had on you when i barely even know you.
that was when i was in sec 3?
oi remembered going out with you to look for a purple shirt.
awesome that u like purple and survivor:) same interest as me:)
but we're a bit different when it comes to priorities.
saw you today. doubt u saw me.
saw u last fri too, i said hi. totally awkward.
saw u on fri while u board the bus too.
why do i keep bumping into you?
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.
.
.
.
it hurts badly.
but whatever, guess you moved on, and i need too.
so, GEN get a grip of yourself!:D
life moves on.
and God is with you no matter what!:D
alwaysrememberyouarenotalone.
3:09 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2011
How do i tell u?
Haizz.. I'm so sorry for ignoring u during that period of time. It was hell busy and i know u understand.
Well, ur busy with yr studies too! Its both our fault! :( we had no time for one another.
Well, if this is God's plan for both of us. I wont go looking for you anymore. I rmb how much i had a crush on you. It was hilarious:) haha. And a stupid friend had to tell you, but i denied all of it! It was embarrasing for me!
Well.. Its not like u know i have a blog. I'll just got to wait and see what the Lord has plan for me! :)
Will we still lunch tgt on mondays? Guess i got to find out for myself tomorrow!
Need to sleep before i become any sicker!
King and i is driving me nuts, so is the posters and the heap loads of incomplete assigments:(
Pls give me strength, Lord! I need ypu badly!
1:27 AM
i thought what i chose was right, maybe it was still right.
but i am dissapointed. din know it would affected me so much.
sadly, but i gotta move on:) i'll find a way!:) i know i will.
ur sis is so nice!:D she talked to me, do u know that?
thanks for the past few months.:)
give me strength lord!:D
12:08 AM
Friday, July 1, 2011
I am gonna make a call that is gonna change a part of my life.
I somehow have no idea what i want again. I am a confuse person, its very true. Somehow i think i am really a sotong.
I am waiting for my sister to sleep and God the father to give me an answer!
Hmmm .. Well i just got to wait and see and put my trust in him:)
Dear Lord pls be with me!
1:30 AM
