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2011-08-30T23:18:00.004+08:00

i love this blog, but there's no privacy here and too much spam so i've moved to wordpress.

there's been so many memories. thus, i'm still keeping the post, but if you guys wanna continue stalking my life. the link is given below.

i need to keep certain stuff private i grew up.. sorry:(

http://gjaelsy.wordpress.com/

2011-08-25T22:42:00.003+08:00

ITS THE HOLIDAYS FOR ME!:D

it started off with a blast, hanging out with my STC FRIENDS!

and i long long sleep of about 15 hrs.

and tomorrow i'm gonna be hanging out with my poly friends!:D how awesome is that?

what a life. i need to sleep soon. i wish i could sleep forever.

2011-08-18T00:45:00.001+08:00

I've made up my mind about one tiny obstacle of life, and now i just to face loads more. How much more pressure can a person take in terms of choosing what is right for him/her.

I cant concentrate cause i feel dam bad. Its lile i'm neglecting what i am suppose to do. But if i turn to that direction, there is a high chance i will start neglecting my studies. Cause it takes up alot of my time and it requires too much brain power that after completing the tast, i'm like a living being without a soul. What should i do?

Seriously, this is a very sensitive topic to me, it gets me soo emotional and i have no reason to explain why. Maybe, cause i treasure this covenant? Ahhhh! I should really stop thinking about it.

I know that i will regret if i quit, but if i dont i may take the opportunity to blame it for giving me such low results. I'm in a mess. A mess that can never be clean up:(

Oh gosh, if only there was someone who understands me and give me good advice on how to cope with this dilema.

2011-08-17T17:33:00.001+08:00

Honestly, stc friends are not the same as poly friends. I miss my STC mates. All those retarded moments and being childish with them.

And i miss my JC friends. All those memories of doing pure human labour and being able to help others grow. Not forgetting my church friends like siao siao. I Miss studying together with her and tfy during my o lvl period, watching movies too. If only i can rewind back into the past.

Thank GOD for pam and teresa being in the same course as me, i think without them i most probably be a different person in poly now. At least, some of my sane self is still kept intact!

2011-08-17T17:20:00.001+08:00

On my way home and i've decided that i should blog.

Okay, i have blocked every single ppl i've known from YSA. Well, thats cause i want my life to be more private. I got alt of things to deal with and i dont think anyone truly understand what i am going through.

Exams exams, biophysics FT is over and i can guarantee you, that i wont get a B. Thus that means no more uni for me, unless i buck up real hard for next semester, which means, less play, more studying. I got to keep focus u know? On top of that i am sure that my commis will be graded as B/C and ENPS a C. I suck at presenting and pracrical. Seriously need to get my head in the game.

Thus, i really wanna be a part of YSA but i know it will also be a disttaction for me, cause not doing the assign task given in JC makes me worried and i feel bad. And my heart be spilt into two, not giving full attention to both work i am supposed to do. But without JC will i still be the same catholic girl i am today?

I've got much to pownder about, as a student, i really feel that education is my top pirority and not doing church work. It's not like i am saying i am totally given up on God, because i know i still love him and the covenant can never be broken. Any idea what should i do? I need advice before i start making this nig dissicion to quit or stay on.

But for now, i'm putting my ministry work on hold, so that i can focus on my exams. I am afraid of dailing and not getting the ideal gpa, but worst come to worst, next sem i am gonna be a nerd. And i dont care what ppl say. And thats just the way i roll. :)

Gambatte!:)

2011-08-10T13:29:00.001+08:00

I wonder who was the one who started calling me a bitch first? And whats the point of saying it to yr face? Things dont change yea?

2011-08-09T22:35:00.001+08:00

Thanks fellow mate for asking and wanting to help, but i cant tell u everything.:( i want too, but i cant. U gotta understamd that i feel disturbed whenever i see father now. I wished mum never tell.

Still annoyed with my sister, she still not apologizing for what she did. Come'on girl, i told you not to and u still wore it. U lied about the wallet thingy and o apology from u. What a sister u are and u rather listen to aaron teo? Maybe he should seriously be yr bf. On a second note, maybe not. Since he asked you to disobey me. So whatever since both of u think i am a bitch and selfish! Thats just what u are gonna get from me. Well, maybe i should have been selfish all the way and not lend u my CDs and my GUITAR PICKS in the first place.

I think i should just quit seriously, i aint fit to be in that group while i am shouting vulgarities all over the place. I cant even handle my life, and u aspect me to help others? What kind of a teacher i am? How can i be mentoring the youth when i, myself is living a fucked up life?

Do u know how it feels like, when u see yr classmates studying and your the only one who dont seem to give a damn? It feels horrible. Its like i'm lacking behind in my studies, it makes you wanna study. Thats how i feel. And when i dont have the mood to study, while others are studying. Stress comes in and te feeling is so shitty. Thats how i feel most of the days, nowadays.

In conclusion, life sucks. I wisg i was back in secondary school where i had good friends who knows how to relax and study at the same time. While in poly, everyone seems to be a mugger, and to keep up with them i have to srudy 24/7. What a life i have?

2011-08-09T22:19:00.001+08:00

Am i that bad?

I know how it feels to loose a friend, i lost one for a few months before, but we patched up. And the feeling sucks. I cant bear to loose you too. It just sucks knowing that i'm soo horrible. I guess different ppl hav dfferent liking.

Some friends prefer joking, so i'm able to irritate them as much as i want without thinking. Guess, ur not the joking kind, i respect that. Soo sorry:( i wont joke as much over this kind of stuff, since i know what yr like. I'm so sorry. Will u forgive me?

2011-08-09T01:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 46TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.

I would say that i am blessed to live in the country as there's no natural disaster

and it has a stable economy. on the other hand, i think the government should level down the expectation of education. it is really stress being a student in Singapore. there's so many things to study about, and education qualification seems to be the only thing that the working world take into account while applying a job other than the fact of being able to be literate in English.

well, my sister is being in a pain in the ass,

seriously, i specifically told her not to wear that sneakers and she wore.

i mean what if it gets dirty? it is leather by the way.

i know u say that u guys(wardens) plan the route. but with father around there is a chance that pair of shoe may get dirty. i am so not risking it.

moreover, whats the point of wearing nice shoe while going for a night walk, no one is gonna look? and on top of that, whats the point of being so fussy about how ur hair looks when its gonna get greasy sooner or later.

so if u think i'm selfish so be it?

another case, my sis lied about not bringing her wallet and asking me to lend her money at first i said no. and her friend, tfw, went something like "guess ur plan din work" and she said it was a joke. so how could it be a joke if it was plan out? explain yourself.moreover its not like i wont lend when u say you do not have enough right? and you're doing this just so that you can go out with ur other friends. like wthhh. if your broke, just admit it and stay home. you could study you know? not as if yr so damn smart that you don't need to study. come'on i ain't that dumb. the way you act seems like you want to portray me as the evil sister who doesn't care. which is so not true. if i didn't give a damn, would i advice you about yr career path, get you a pre-paid cut when mum cut the phone lines. use ur brain,seriously? or is it filled with junk like the amount of junk food u eat?

oh well, so think before you talk.

if you think they are assumptions, so be it. YOU BRAT.

thus, in conclusion yr punishment, is to return me back my stuff, and not used/touch my things without permission. until, u realize yr mistake and learn how to respect me properly.

p.s i don't care if you are reading this. it's my blog. freedom of speech.

2011-08-07T11:27:00.001+08:00

I just did something horrible o my close friend:(

Well, i din know it will made her soo angry with me, to me its a joke, but i guess it is not. I hacked into her fb, and change her dp and self proclaim that she was an alien. Ahhh! I'm soo sorry:( i think i am just to use to playing pranks and all sort of rubbish.

I donno what to do now, and obviously ur friendship means alot to me. Yr like my younger sister. :pls forgive me, i am seriously sorry.

2011-08-02T20:29:00.001+08:00

Soo, its ur birthday tomorrow.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOM!
all the best for ur upcoming exams too! God Bless!

On another note,
Eltech, biophysics is driving me nuts!:( three more weeks to exam and i can guarantee you i am NOT prepared! Seems like my routine of doing all my online assignments isnt working as plan. But its not a choice! Its a must do! It affects my GPA! And i aim for at least a 3.8? But i doubt i'll reach it. At most a 3.5? Screw every single practical, seriously, its a disaster!

New stratergy,
Write loads of notes for my modules, only after completing the online tutorials. Even a 1% makes alot of differents to my entire grade. And with such high hopes, i need to focus more. If that even means not to do my JC stuff.

But Father, i still trust in you and believe you. Thus, a promise that Once i am done with studies i will do more work for you. And i will try my very best not to swear even if the catholics around me swears. I will pray everyday. And read the bible to ensure that my faith relationahip with you will never fade. This may be only words. Henceforth, my actions shall do what i said to do. Besides, a covenant with you will never fade.

2011-07-29T21:20:00.002+08:00

its been another week, din see him around in school.:(

school have been pretty hectic, lets just say with all the amount of practical lessons and test.

i can just kill myself, i am a failure at practical, literally.

i burnt the circuit, the plastic covering of the wire. not to mention my wire cutter.

thats how noob i am at practical. on top of that during eltech practical,

the teacher gave me extra time, and yet i was unable to complete it!

gosh! exams are around the corner:(

save me pls!

2011-07-24T21:57:00.003+08:00

this few days has been great. mum aint around.

fri,

terry came to surprise me at ngeeann! i was jumping

mad, running around the campus like a crazy little child. till i saw him, my whole mood changed. it was an awkward sight, obviously. din know if i should be happy or sad. decided, to went to terry's house at night. we chit-chat, reminisce the past and talked about the future. not to forget, Pam gian was with us too. she was the one who lied to me just to get terry to NP, to surprise me!:D I LOVE YOU!:D i'm so sorry Pam, i know u hate lying. butt... U PASS! at least u practice a new skill, the skill of

lying!:D ,

i bump into him a couple of times that day. hopefully he din see how foolish we were cam-whoring in the library and the bus stop. i bet aeron was embarrassed by us three, crazy girls. but thanks for helping us take the pics!:D

sat,

mum ain't home. started on my dreaded report, IC 555. headed to church after zillion of days, i miss it. i got to admit, but the urge of quitting is huge with the piles of work being thrown at me. went for e.c, father Gerard's homily was a reminder that i should never quit because i know i'll go back to God no matter what. especially when i am in a depressing mood, so why quit, when you can always have him throughout your life. he is there to help, comfort me when i'm down. share my joy when i am happy. after e.c, me and geri decided to bring Gwen out for an early birthday treat, obviously our parents din know about it till later, they weren't around, how awesome can that be?

teenagers are meant to break some rules, aren't we?

get into trouble once in a while?

Sunday was kinda mundane as i was stuck with my report, obviously not much was done on Saturday. oh well, pon meeting:) finally i get a whole Sunday to myself. i wanted to go for guitar lesson, badly but i really couldn't i was glued to my chair, staring at the horrible REPORT! oh well, life of an ongoing school kid i would say. sacrifices are required to be made in order to get work done. the only highlight was when the squires came, my only break from my report.

on a lighter notw, i am almost done with the report, just that i'm unsure of a certain part.

guess i'll leave it blank and ask my friends around before i work on it. i should really get going. TO STUDYYY other modules and prepare for a TEST tomorrow:(

2011-07-22T00:04:00.002+08:00

i'm blogging like every single day.

maybe because i just need to pour my heart out somewhere.

cause i don't wanna speak about certain stuff.

i'm stressed up, this week has been hectic. three test. one presentation.

what bout next week, two practical test, one test, and a report due (haven't started).

the week after, presentation, hopefully no more test.

not forgetting I've yet to redo my lesson plan.

if only time could stretch from 24 hours to 50 hours a day.

i guess thats just how i roll now,

monday to friday - wake up, school, study, sleep with a tiny bit of fun every once in a while.

sat - cat class, study, mass.

sun- (junior cat meeting?) ,study, guitar lesson(only fun time).

why '(junior cat?)' ?

i cant cope. i have the urge to quit.

at the same time, if i quit i'm afraid my faith will go down the drain.

i will change for the worst. just look at me now, i'm starting to used vulgarities, going back to those good old days where i din bother about my religion.

i'm thinking if i should shun u away from my life completely,

you don't seem to bother anymore.

2011-07-20T23:17:00.001+08:00

If i could, i would leave house.

You say this and that. You are the one who gave me the permission to go overseas right? And now yr complaining? What the shit is wrong with you? Screw loose? If u know u gonna hav problems with me going, u should have not have given me the green sign to go right?

Damn you and ur nonsence. I cant even find peace to study. Are u trying to create a new baggage in my already eff-up life?

Wgy i'm using vulgarities?
I am freakin pissed at you. I am stress. I got too many problems. I am tired. I dont habe the mood to joke. I lost someone. I miss church. My brain is wired up. Everything is messy. She dosent talk. He dosent care. You dont understand us.

Quick leave singapore so i can find peace. And now i got to suffer and wake upsuper early in the morning so. I dont need to endure ur nonsence.

Gonna try my best to pray to sleep.

P.s i saw him during engmech practical.

2011-07-20T23:10:00.001+08:00

Waiting for HP to start! Damn exciteddd:)
I think i am better, though i still think of him. Its still very often. But at least i dont emo and all. Maybe cause i have company with me most of the time. But when i'm by myself things are different.hope ur doing fine with yr studies.

I must not tell lies, right harry? Hahaha.
I miss watching hp with terry! We used to buy sneak preview ticks at gv! And scream like those fangirls when the movie start. Miss those time. Miss stc girls:(

But i'm stressed up. The question bout quitting junior cat keep popping into my head. God save me! Bring me back to you!

3test, 1presentation, 1report i a week is no joke. Not forgetting i got a pile of work cause i negleted my studies during king and i.:( what shld i do?

2011-07-19T23:52:00.001+08:00

baby cuzzie came over just now! his so cutee^^

played with him and now i'm too lazy to continue to study. :(

i am gonna flunk biophysics at this rate. how?

i'm so scared seriously.

mechanics practical tomorrow,

u know what that means?

2011-07-18T23:42:00.001+08:00

i'm annoyed, damn annoyed with everything.

why cant u give her the damn laptop?

whats ur problem!?

you say you need to quickly go home. liar.

you walk so slow.

wthhh.... go die.

2011-07-18T20:31:00.001+08:00

2011-07-17T18:38:00.002+08:00

AHHH!

do i look like a drug addict? father call me that today-_-

wth. haiz. lesson plan, kill myself pls.

i feel like quitting again. whats up with my mixed emotion?

up. down,up,down. like a roller coaster only.

gonna go for guitar later!:D OOPS I DIDNT PRACTICE.

uncle clement is gonna kill me, i still cant differentiate

between uncle clement and uncle kenny-_-

ahhh! u found my blog. I"M BUSTED.

lol. congrats to you!

gonna play tetris with my sister via fb,

soghurt with rachel tomorrow hopefully:)

and harry potter with my family tomorrow..

not looking forward to the rest of the week!

TEST ON WED,THURS,FRI!

GOD PLS GIVE ME STRENGTH!

2011-07-16T00:37:00.001+08:00

My mum is a fucking biatch. No wpnder my sis keeps things away from her. I totally understand now.

She told me not to go church to often as i am too weak, so i decided to take time to relax and hang out with my friend. So when i am officially well i'll be able to continue church stuff. But what i get in return? Scolded from coming home late. It was only 11.30p.m! Its not like i never reached home later. You know whats her excuse, that time i was in a relationship or i was in church. Wth! So i am treated differently deepending on what i do?

Didnt u said not to compare? What rubbish! She dont even know that she is contracdicting herself-_-

Gosh! And my mum should start acting like a normal mother and stop trying to be funny around her kids freinds its just uncool!

She better start changing or else i am gonna keep my life private and start to lie to you. I dont really care if i am rebelious anymore. Its not like ur a good mother!

2011-07-15T07:47:00.001+08:00

I'm in school waiting for biophysics to start. Blogging via my phone:) awesome right? I'm beside siying and with two other classmates. Still cant rmb their names cause its chinese names. I suck as a classmate, i know much. -_-

Oh well, been trying to forget you, but ur still somewhere lingering in my mind or else why would i be blogging bout u right?
U dont reply my messages :( sadded. Do u eve treasuee our friendship? It meant quite alot to me in sec 4. When we used to text each other on the way to school, during and after school. Rmb?
Oh well, hopefully u'll reply soon, or a friendship of almost three years is going down the drain. I hate that feeling. I've been through it time and time again.

On a lighter note, i found my class! :)

2011-07-15T07:40:00.001+08:00

I found something damn intresting to me! Lmao-_- seriously. Oh well, i should go sleep.

Sian ahhhh! Got some retreat to go on august30th. Is it exam period? Somehow i dont feel like going -_- something aint right with me. Starting to dread church again... Haizz

I cant cope with my life seriously. I need to learn to balance out.

Had an awesome day with gian gian and aeron!:) pepper lunch:) woohoo:)

2011-07-12T16:49:00.001+08:00

re- reading my post made me realize i din write anything much bout us.

and i do not want those memories to fade.

so here it goes it was April 11 that u ask me to be yours,

u planned it out so well, and i think it was the fifth time i saw u so far in my life even though i knew u since sec 4. we watched a movie called just go with it. i could tell u kept looking at me. hilarious:) and my church friend sat in front of us. before the movie, we had a few hours to waste so we went sentosa. :) it was fun. we took a pic( u gave it to me in a card, for our second month).

watched the movie. walk around vivo. went out to look at the scenery and that was when u asked. i knew my reaction was unexpected. i'm sorry. but i din know u felt the same:) i was glad. :) then we talked for a while telling me how u actually plan about asking me and about when u liked me:) u even remembered all those time we communicate via sms that i dont recall-_- .

we went out on val day, u sent me home:) even though u stay so farr away from me:(

sorry. i stayed at woodlands and you stay at bedok.

i remember you came to woodlands to fetch me, when out to orchard to catch another movie, and u sent me home again!:D cant believe u did that. i was touched.

on top of that, i went to ur house, went out with you ur sis and ur grandma!:D

u came to my church twice!:D

sooner or later school started and we drift apart:( apparently being in the same school din really help. but i met u almost every Monday for lunch and i usually looked forward to it. oh and we had the same commis teacher. and every alternate wednesday a get to catch a glimpse of you. it was better than nothing:)

but things changed after a while, we stopped talking for a while, we were too busy for each other and we broke up:( heart-broken. oh well, at least what we had was awesome! you'll be in my heart<3

rmb how we met? via msn through a certain mutual friend of ours?

it was hilarious. how they teased u to be gay:)

we had same interest, survivor, amazing race and the love for purple.

u were having o's and we made a deal to hang out after yr o's to find you a purple shirt.

and we did! except that i had to rush back for something else:(

reminiscing us:)

wonderwall...

p.s if only we had more time together. i seriously think we'll last:)

2011-07-11T15:09:00.003+08:00

dear blog,

i'm more or less alone in school, well at least the other person i know who is within reach from me is ...no one but myself!:D

listening to wonderwall, u know why?

cause it reminds me bout you!

(the time at sentosa when u ask me to be your gf)

just a few months back in feburary on the exact same date.

i can tear anytime seriously just thinking about us.

and the cards u wrote is still with me.

cant bear to throw them.

care bears reminds me of you too.

i'm sorry for ignoring u, i'm sorry for screwing things up.

i don't know what got to me during that period of time.

i admit i wanted to break up when i was with you, but i'm regretting it.

and i rmb how much a crush i had on you when i barely even know you.

that was when i was in sec 3?

oi remembered going out with you to look for a purple shirt.

awesome that u like purple and survivor:) same interest as me:)

but we're a bit different when it comes to priorities.

saw you today. doubt u saw me.

saw u last fri too, i said hi. totally awkward.

saw u on fri while u board the bus too.

why do i keep bumping into you?

it hurts badly.

but whatever, guess you moved on, and i need too.

so, GEN get a grip of yourself!:D

life moves on.

and God is with you no matter what!:D

alwaysrememberyouarenotalone.

2011-07-10T01:27:00.001+08:00

How do i tell u?
Haizz.. I'm so sorry for ignoring u during that period of time. It was hell busy and i know u understand.
Well, ur busy with yr studies too! Its both our fault! :( we had no time for one another.

Well, if this is God's plan for both of us. I wont go looking for you anymore. I rmb how much i had a crush on you. It was hilarious:) haha. And a stupid friend had to tell you, but i denied all of it! It was embarrasing for me!

Well.. Its not like u know i have a blog. I'll just got to wait and see what the Lord has plan for me! :)

Will we still lunch tgt on mondays? Guess i got to find out for myself tomorrow!

Need to sleep before i become any sicker!

King and i is driving me nuts, so is the posters and the heap loads of incomplete assigments:(

Pls give me strength, Lord! I need ypu badly!

2011-07-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

i thought what i chose was right, maybe it was still right.

but i am dissapointed. din know it would affected me so much.

sadly, but i gotta move on:) i'll find a way!:) i know i will.

ur sis is so nice!:D she talked to me, do u know that?

thanks for the past few months.:)

give me strength lord!:D

2011-07-01T01:30:00.001+08:00

I am gonna make a call that is gonna change a part of my life.
I somehow have no idea what i want again. I am a confuse person, its very true. Somehow i think i am really a sotong.
I am waiting for my sister to sleep and God the father to give me an answer!

Hmmm .. Well i just got to wait and see and put my trust in him:)

Dear Lord pls be with me!

2011-06-30T01:11:00.001+08:00

I've made up my mind but how am i to carry out the plan?
I dont wanna belike those girls who are selfish. I care for people, my friends.
I guess the time will have to come. God, Family and my friends, studies are the main importance of my life. Not relationship.

On top of that i would like to thank one of the HT during p4 camp for twlling me about my attitude. i almost cried, it was a wake up call to say that GOD the FATHER is the most important. Thank you loads!

I would also like to thank the Lord foe giving me the energy to allow me to do his work past midnight in church and still being able to survive during school hours! :)

By the way, after a minute out of church. I'm missing my qahal more and more!

I'm soo sorry to my stc friends if i havent been able to go out and talk to you for this past few weeks! I'll make it up somehow. Pls understand me! Love you all loads and i miss you girls!

2011-06-13T22:49:00.002+08:00

hi. back again for the second time.

seeing what they are going through, family is important!

thank you God for giving me a Family. A Blessed one.

i should learn how to be sanctified with what i have.

there are people out there who are in a worse position compared to me.

another thing, that i have learnt today is to not judge a book by its cover.

He don't seem like the kind to use physical abuse on her.

i pity their kids. how could you? i thought u guys we're loving.

on a lighter note,

Happy Feast Day to every parishioners of St Antony of Padua!

2011-06-13T12:49:00.002+08:00

in the morning, i woke up and the thought was still lingering in my mind.

i feel that there is a need to tell them stuff. but something is holding me back.

i hope this feeling will end, it has to!

if it don't, this awkward me will always be around whenever i see you.

i have to do something before it get worst,

i just need to pull myself through.

p.s dont ask me what this is about.

it is non of yr concern or whatsoever.

2011-06-13T00:41:00.001+08:00

Ahhh!
Its getting worst and worst...
Its never ending;(
I donno what to do! And i cant bear to do such thing! and it is just plain weird!
I admit in the past i could not decide.
But after the past few months its never ending.
I just hope..... One day..... Maybe.....

2011-06-05T01:08:00.001+08:00

I cant sleep!
I've been studying and been thinking abut things lately.

First off, exams starts tomorrow!:/ save me!

I've decided on something, to cut down on my spending and to study hard and give my parents a good life during their old age.

Why?
Kinda simple. My dad works shift hours, i bet u know that. During his off days, he tries to earn extra income. I feel that he is overworking himself:( and i feel bad. Like today, his been out the whole day, and he is still not asleep:( and he have to work full shift tomorrow. On top of that he gotta wake earlier to finish what gwhe has started:(

Reasons are because my family members are high maintanance, that includes me. I love spludging on good food, movies and clothes. I guess i gotta cut down from now on. I pray the rest of my family members will do that to.

Dear GOD,
Pls take good care of my dad!

2011-05-31T22:50:00.002+08:00

hey blog,

i'm taking a break from studying.

i just spoil my hard drive:(

i got so many things to say, but i don't know where to start from.

lets take a look, school has been great, the friends i made there are somewhat amazing:)

as in, i like them.

lessons are boring, as usual. i'm somewhat more awake during practical and tutorial compared to lectures.

CTs around the conner and i am damn scared for biophysics:( i dont understand anything.

on top of that, biophysics test is approaching in 2 more days! SAVE ME!

my religious aspect of life, is like a roller-coaster i will say, sometimes i feel like giving up, but whenever that happens something/someone will bring me back to God. I guess i just need to have a deeper relationship with HIM. In order to understand why i am required to do his will.

REASON NUMBER 1. I AM BAPTIZE.

Next, my social life.... hmmm..more or less so-so. i don't get to meet my friends who i which to often due to school/church stuff. Not enough time to relax and hang out for a day! :(

at least i met priya for about two hours. and i get to see some pam gian in school.

other than that, i have not really met my stc friends:(

well, on a brighter note, i get to see my church peeps almost every week!:D

I HAVENT HANG OUT WITH SOMEONE FOR QUITE A LONG TIME:(

we only studied and had lunch together ever since school started:(

2011-05-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

so, i'm back to blogging after every once in a while.

on sunday, i learn something,

i should not quit on God!:D

because i am baptize:) and forever i will be!

thanks for helping me go through my times of need.

CTs are just around the corner,

i need my A's badly:(

2011-05-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

i have to change my perspective of the issue that i am facing.

whats wrong with me?

at times i wonder why cant i get along with everybody? (referring to a specific group of people).

i need to change, but i don't know how to?

God, please help me or is this your will? it cant be what you asked because i got to love one another as how you love us right?

anyway, thank you for the past few days,

being with me through my times of need:)

please continue to teach me to be a better person.

on a lighter note, i'm finally gonna catch a movie with my family tomorrow!<3

2011-05-18T23:15:00.002+08:00

school is fine, kinda tough. but i'm trying my very best.

i decided to join the same cca as my stc friends in np!:D

i know i've went bad to my old habit, and it sucks seriously.

leaving those stuff for school was not really my plan.

but no matter what, my grades are more important than doing those work.

YES, i do believe those stuff are equally important,

but so long as i believe in YOU i know my faith in you still continues.

i won't totally leave it aside, i promise. and i don't want to.

i finally got to see him but we din talk:(

well, i guess we're just busy with our own stuff.

I MISS YOU!

2011-04-23T15:36:00.002+08:00

waddup.

i was suppose to post a week ago about the media literacy course.

but now i kinda forgotten what i wanted to write about.

so, i'm on to the next event of my life.

the orientation programme in school has been a blast.

made a lot of new friends, played some really wacky games.

not forgetting dance4fun:) we din win, but the times i had with my fellow schoolmates were amazing:)

gtg, got to get ready for easter vigil:D

i'm lacking of formal clothings:(

2011-04-13T00:56:00.003+08:00

ahhh!

i feel like shouting for no apparent reason.i should just isolate myself.

i'm screwed up and its true. i feel like I've failed. (and its most probably the truth)

next week is major, there is dance4fun and i still cant correct my steps.

Sedar meal, Lenten vigil's coming and i don't think i did much.

the things i wanted to do for lent wasn't carried out as planned.

i haven't been spending time with people i think i should. i'm sorry.

my priorities are still in a mess, WHEN CAN I EVER LEARN?

instead of being catholic, i think i became worst.

vulgarities shooting out from my mouth every hour.

i wasn't like that:( whats happening to me?

am i just being paranoid?

I wanna lighten my burden. i wanna be a better follower of Christ.

i don't want to be influence by the ways of how the world works.

people are telling me to quit. i don't have the heart to do so.

Dear God the Father,

i thank you for the enjoyable times i am having from time to time.

i praise and glorify your name for ever being so forgiving.

i adore you, O Lord,

i know i have sin against you many times but

please give me the strength to persevere in keeping my faith alive.

Amen.

2011-04-07T20:40:00.002+08:00

since i do not have anything to do at this very moment, i decided i should poat something here.

i want a new blogskin, but i forgot how to find/design one. so, whatever, i'll stick to this till the time comes:)

anyway, i left with exactly 10 more days till school start,

and i'm more or less pack with loads of stuff to do.

like church stuff, and michelle<3 is finally back in singapore, got to meet her.

theresa<3 is coming back soon,stc friends and so forth.

been going back and forth to ngee ann recently for dance4fun practices:)

watched a couple of movies too.

for instance, recently i just watch sanctum with dominic<3 and HOP with my littlest sis, gwen<3

both movies were quite good, i'll say. hop is just good cause its cute. :)

oh and sorry if i delete you my fb, i dont really have an explanation why i did that, to be honest:)

2011-04-04T13:13:00.002+08:00

watzzsup blogg!:D

i feel much better after talking it all out,

balancing the pros and cons of a certain part of my life.

yes, i've decided to stay on and give my best.

i know, its gonna be tough with piles of school work coming, i can foresee.

i'll just put in more effort and set my priorities right!:D

ANYWAY, I GOT TO GO TO MEET SOMEONE!:D

2011-03-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

two weeks more before school starts, not including this week.

i'm not too sure if its a good thing, there's pros and cons. i'm got to start studying. thumbs up to that:) i miss studying, after months of slacking.but i know for sure, i'll dislike studying soon after.

some stuff are just killing my brain cells. i'm not the kind that can come up with new activities.

its not my trademark. i feel like giving up:( i'm already trying my best. however, at times i feel that i'm not.

i miss hanging out with some people, they are schooling, while i'm coop up at home. i'm missing stc too, i remember how much i hated stc! all the small talks i had with my close buds, all the nonsensicalness stuff we did. those we're the days.

but well, thats life, i'm turning 18 soon. gonna be legal in terms of driving, drinking and smoking. i'm growing older. thus, its time to move on with life. gained new experience, knowledge and what else? there;s so much more to discover!=)

and looking at my older post, i realised i've change during the past few years in many ways. my appearance, personality, attitude and my relationship with different people.

anyway, i shall upload some photos from the past year soon:)

from here, till then. ciao.

2011-03-25T17:47:00.001+08:00

yay!

i'm loving life!:)

2011-03-07T14:48:00.002+08:00

its already march, 1/4 of the year has pass.

and what have i been up to?

NOTHING MUCH, SERIOUSLY.

I've been slacking, going out,

church, eat,sleep.

just like any other ordinary people.

school's starting in a month time:)

i'm excited, is it weird of me to feel so?

SCHOOL CAMP IS NEXT WED!:D

i cant wait, and i'm off to settle some overdue late work again:(

2011-02-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY OF CNY!:)

had a blast.

went to veron's house and lost $1.50.

i celebrated V DAY with dominic!:D

and with geri,veron,aaron teo.

sadly joseph din come.

it was great.

i stopped work.

having problems with asthma again:(

and survivor will be showing on tv today!:D at 6p.m.

dot forget to catch it!

I need my key, to unlock my drawer,

to get my diary out, seriously.

2011-02-06T10:44:00.002+08:00

ITS CNY AGAIN!:D

well, lets see this year the only diff is that there's an addition to the family.

small little cuzzie, DARRYL!

KINDA LOVING MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!:)

I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO WORK:(

save me, SOMEONE!

i want school to start!

2011-01-21T01:53:00.002+08:00

work was cool ,just the other day!:D

HMPH.. MY HEAD IS SPINNING WITH

LOADS OF RANDOM THOUGHTS!

i'm not sure where to begin.

to be honest, i fear poly as much as i am excited for it.

2011-01-18T22:24:00.003+08:00

OHMYGOSH!

why is there a u-turn?

like why does somethig sad happen when everything seems to be going well?

a question i asked myself, soo very often.

too bad there isn't an answer.

life goes round and round, not literally but something always have

to make life a disappointment when everything seems great.

hmmm....some random thoughts to ponder on.

on a lighter note, my job is quite fun.

to be honest, nothing much to do. :)

soo, i'm glad with it!

i need to stop eating.

i think i have grew more sideways for the past few months:(

2011-01-16T21:32:00.002+08:00

watz up!

I'VE SUBMITTED MY JAE!:D

now waiting for posting.

hopefully, i'll be able to get into

BIOMEDICAL ENGIEERING at NGEEANN

i've been working at seoul garden while teresa is at breeks.

its kinda fun but a little slackish at times.

well, the people there are friendly.

alot of malay though, not use to it.

on a brighter side i am able to practise my

malay language skill.

2011-01-11T00:01:00.003+08:00

i have my results! i'm pleased with it, it was expected!
now to decide on a course..which most probably be some engineering thingy.
i dont really have an idea of wherei'll go after the diploma but i guess i'll have to give it a try.

i'll most probably opt for engineering together with buisness studies.
so i'll be able to choose business if worst come to worst.
but what is so bad about business anyway?

i'm tired!
braindamage!
too much drama around!

Dear Father,
i thanked you for my results and for guiding me during the difficult times.
i praise and adore you for ever being soo merciful and kind towards me,
for giving me a chance to start a new. ILY.
please continue to do so as i grow older and allow me to get into the course
that is right for me.
amen.

2011-01-05T23:00:00.002+08:00

i cant believe time pass soo fast!

i'm gonna be 18 this year!:( sadly!

can u believe it?

2010 was a year full of joy, laughter,sorrow and tears.

on a brighter note, 2010 is when i realise that my faith was important

and it was during that year i've change for the better although i'm

more or less still very slackish.

'O' level results this coming monday!

i doubt i'll do that well.

i know that cause i know i din put in all my effort

as i played too much.

anyway its 2011!

things are gonna change,

its going to be a marvelous year!:)

i'll be a better girl!

2010-12-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

its past midnight!
first andforemost i'm proud to say i hav been confirmed,
thus, an adult i'v become within the catholic community.
confirmation was a blast! a wonderful experience
with many obstacles which was at times good and bad.
but the main ting is that you are growing deeper in faith.

trekking back a few days ago. i went to watch harry potter again
with siao, joseph and joan.
had to cook hell loads of food for the servers which at times it wasnt that edible
as it was tasteless. sorry guys!

the day before confirmation a few of us hiked from s anthony to st mary's
we had to cross over huge sewage tube and my red converse went all muddy.
the next destination was to st iggy's which we finally wlked on concrete pavement.
it was a fairly tiring journey and i ended my day by watching narnia:voyage to the dawn treader.
:D

thank you dear father for all the unforgetful memories.
i praise you and adore you always.
pls dcontinue to guide me through my day to day activities!:D
i love you!

2010-12-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

WHATS UP!!

i'm back from saint anthony's youth camp!
it was seven days long, and i was in charge of the gentiles.
GEN'S TILES!

well, it have been a fruitful seven days as i've learn
more about the kingdom of God and how to archieve it.
we got to take things step by step.
on top of that, i have gain more experience is facilitating camps,
as i tried my best to do the best i can.

i feel that i have grown deeper in my relationship with GOD THE FATHER.
and learn more about how i've change since sec one.
btw, i'm proud to say me, myself have been improving slowly
in terms of attitude, character and last but not least my faith.

oh. before the youth camp, i was at tconfirmation retreat which
also had taught me to never give up and there's always hope for you
to learn and improve yourself. on top of that, i also learn that you do not
require to be someone like a nun or priest to help others as little deeds that we do
in our daily life may help to improve some others.

2010-11-25T22:43:00.002+08:00

I'M GONNA BE AWAY IN CAMP FOR AWHILE!

for approximately 10 days!:D

the camps are split into two parts.

confirmation retreat - 3 days

youth camp- 7 days

2010-11-24T21:18:00.001+08:00

ommygosh!!!
I'M GETTING COFIRM!:D

oh... red camp! is super duper fun fun fun!
too bad i mis the last part:(

WE ARE THE MIGHTY VIKINGS! LALALALA!
WE ARE THE MIGHTY VIKINGS! HAHAHAHA!
WE ARE HOT HOT HOT HOT!
THIS VERY HOT!:)

siam eh!:)

2010-11-22T22:51:00.002+08:00

since O's ended!:)

i've been going out with siao siao and joseph to watch movies,
oh, and to east coast park together with some others. :)
it was kinda fun!:D and i had a blue black as a souvenir! hahahs!

cat brought me and veron to sakaee to celebrate my birthday!:D

went out with dave to watch a movie.

PROM AND GRAD a few days back! it was awesome!:D

redcamp today!:D it was fun fun fun! i'm in green tribe!
vikings! vikings!;) RULEZ!
then went out with dominic for dinner!

YOUTH CAMP SOON! PRAYING I'M GETTING CONFIRM THIS YEARR!:D

red camp once again tomorrow, gonna meet the pamelas,ys,sherine for breakfast!

2010-11-06T22:33:00.003+08:00

ho ho ho!
middle of o's now!
went to skinny pizza for my birthday! it was yummiliciously scrumptious!
hahah! doubt i'm going there anytime soon:(

good charlotte album is out!:)
gonna grab it soon:)

happy 17th me!:)

2010-10-16T19:29:00.001+08:00

back, back again!
getting tired of studying,
i cant concentrate.

2010-10-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh!
freakishly hell! i dont like studying at home:(
feeling sleepy after every 10 mins!
omgoshhH! i'm so deadd:9
ARGHHH!

2010-10-12T10:57:00.001+08:00

studying wa fruitful yesterday!:)
it first started out at the library with veron and sean,
headed to cck for dinner as cwp is under renovation.
then back to church with veron to continue hard core studying.
and i'm still studying!
dying of boredom actually!:(
help?

2010-10-10T10:44:00.001+08:00

was havig fun this past week, its time to get down to business!

AND NOW YOU'RE GONE, TERRY COME BACK!

dont leave me! thnaks for the everything!:D

we'll, went out with veron, she's so sweeeet! came all the way to my school,

which is so freakin far for her... veron, at least u din get lost!

thanks cat, your sis seems nice, take care of your back!

oh, via via i still owe u an explanation? at least we found a place for make up and hair!:D
who else do i owe outings too?
we'll, u gotta wait alright, i wana concentrate on O's.
i dont wanna screw my life up!

and you.. dont act strange, you're not mine...
dont ask me for my opinions.
its time to move on.

START STUDYING YO!

2010-10-04T19:30:00.003+08:00

hello! went shopping with via today! she gother prom dress!:D
HAHA! I STOLE HER! for her last outing before o level starts.
anyway, ____ what the hell is wrong with you?

and________ stop irritating me bout him. okay?
arent we friends? if u cant handle being friends then just dont talk to me okay?
i wont mind.:) seriously. u already hurt me alot with your past
and ur crapiness!

2010-10-03T21:31:00.001+08:00

i'm done finding a prom dress!:D
and shoes too!

now for some.....

2010-09-28T21:17:00.002+08:00

iut sucks, sucks sucks!:(
someone, just... argh..hmph... i dont know.

dear lord, pls guide me.

2010-09-27T22:20:00.001+08:00

hey watzup!
GUESS WHAT,
although life sucks at times,
there's always people there to cheer you up!:)
so be happy with whatever that comes your way.

i'm getting over you.

2010-09-19T10:13:00.002+08:00

AHHH! NO proper standown for study break!
EFFING SCHOOL!

we, students, do study at home alright!
of cause u dont see it, cause school is not at home!
STUPID SHITHOLE!

2010-09-11T23:08:00.001+08:00

HEY HEY!
there was a bbq a few days back together with church youth from the h.t, rciy, signatures of love.
and of course the junior cats, me!:)
HAHA! IT WAS FREAKIN FUN!:)

oh man:( school is starting:(
well, at least i only got to bare with it for another three weeks:)
then its study break!:)

2010-09-07T00:13:00.002+08:00

time passes soo fast,
and at times everything seems to go by in a flash.

you leave your bad memories behind, and bring forth the good ones.
you live your life as though only the positive comes to you.

but what awaits, might be something way dangerous.
have u consider that?

2010-08-30T21:33:00.003+08:00

you just dont get it, dot you?
all of your intention and actions do not semmed to link.
why cant u just give up now?
why cant you stay focus,
why so forgetfull?

and this rate you're going,
you;re life is gonna remain the way it is.
are u sure you are gonna love it?
it's better to do it now.

2010-08-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

woo!:)
i'm better! haha! in many ways.
kinda tired already!:(

hols for me tomorrow!:)

2010-08-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

yo yo!:)
haha! grad photo taking day was awesomely fun!<3

english orals on tues:(

2010-08-08T00:54:00.002+08:00

my blog is kinda dead,
but thats okay.
it doesnt mean i cant update it right?

in the midst of prelims, most people will be thinking,
"what the heck, am i doing online!?"
but i feel if i can manage my time effiiently, its alright, right?
thus, i'm here blogging.
but the main reason it is to check for emails.
on the other had, i'm learning how to cut down on the com.
sometimes i feel i overused it.

i dont get why life cant be perfect?
haha, mine is almost perfect,
i thank god for that!:D

2010-08-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

hey all! hols for almost a week, just one day shot.
havent been online much this week cause of prelims.
but i keep dozing off while studying!:(
sad life of an ongoing school kid in singapore, seriously.

hmm..the only reason i'm online is because i'm addicted to a new drama series again
its called PRETTY LITTLE LIARS.
ain't sure if that its a good sign, ITS NICE.
and gossip girl has been getting draggy and kind of boring.
too many twist and turns perharps?
the suspense of watching it, does'nt seem to be there anymore.
oh, in love with despo housewives now. no idea why.

i'm so dead if i dont stop watching all this series.
there's still skins, eastwick and gossip girl to be complete.
oh not forgetting 90210.

life have not really be great.
there's still things that can be improve.
i need to see a rainbow soon,
or else i'm not too sure bout it yet.
anyway, i should go sleep soon.
nights!:)

2010-07-24T22:42:00.002+08:00

hey,
this week was one of the worse week i ever had in my entire school life.

on monday, a good friend of mine,jasmine tea, took the initiative to unhook my bra during recess for ... i have no idea what reason.met theresa after that, went sakae sushi for lunch. we did some catching up and reminiscing the past:D

tuesday to thursay, i was bored dead at home. apparently i was sick partially thanks to monday's lunch.

friday, i went to school and i did not have any lesson.HUGE MISTAKE!:( i was still sick. to be honest, there was chemistry, knowing me, i fell asleep. had confirmation meeting in the evning. met up with veronica and joseph.

saturday, met up with germs, joan, michael and gabriel to learn how to set up the altar table. interesting i would say. i learn much more this time round compared to the previous lesson back in sec 3. hopefully it would not slipped my mind again.

thanks rara for sending me home on monday!:D
and everything else.

2010-07-18T19:41:00.002+08:00

hmm.. lets just say!
i'm happy most of the time.
i went for big walk today!
it was kinda fun!:D
and then church:)
had more etiquette training.
its really cool

prelims are up next week? someone help me pls?
or i'm like gonna die. i need to focus real bad!:(
hate exams. i cant keep still!

ooh. watching tv now:D

2010-07-08T20:44:00.002+08:00

havent been blogging much!
but loads and loads of thing happen!

I'M LIKE SUPER HAPPY NOW!
AND TIRED!
GONNA TRY TO STUDY CHEMISTRY SOON!:(

despicable me tomorrow cant wait.
i watched eclipse on the firt day! cool right?

world cup is going to end soon,
prelims are coming,
o level nearing!
damn it!:(

2010-06-22T23:18:00.002+08:00

so whatzz up?

HAD ORALS TODAY!
AND IT WAS WELL...
the reading was quite easy.
the picture was like OMG!what is this?
the conversation went like...

anyway, went to ikea for lunch after doing fnn.
then doll, bern and emma came to my house to play cards.
went online to do my project.
and we took like 2hrs to decide on what role to do! HAHAS!

yesterday went to play badminton!
its was kinda fun. and then tried flying kites too!
it was with siao siao, joseph, samuel and rara.
doll doll went no idea where. haha!

2010-06-20T21:09:00.002+08:00

whatzz up!?
okay havent been blogging for a long time.
and there were so many activities that i missed blogging about.
for instance, the con 2 activity to sentosa, feast day.
oh and not forgetting today was the carrom competition.
what else happen? omgoshh!
i'm lost!
studied with veron and joseph,
went out with rara!:) and dolly.
ahh! got loads more i'm getting lazyy to type.
and nettie's birthday which we played laser quest!
it was awesome! just like her! hahahs!

2010-06-04T17:32:00.002+08:00

i have watch killers!
ashton kutcher is so hot!
the girl aint bad too:)
hahas!
thanks rara for the movie!

gotta go for camp in an hour or so,
smell you soon:)

2010-06-01T20:43:00.003+08:00

SHREK FOREVER AFTER! THE BABIES ARE SO CUTE!:D

anyway, i had school today.
macs for breakfast with nia nia!
then geog, so boring.

this shrek movie is way better than the second and third shrek. but nothing can beat the first one.
i cried during the movie, silly me:(
but you should watch!
donkey is funneh!

2010-05-31T11:55:00.002+08:00

HELLO! school hols are finally here!
yay! a break from school = a break from hearing ppl who goes
"can i try a bit?"
"hey gen, ......."
effing annoying peeps!
get out of my way or i'll bash you!:D

anyway, i started by hanging out around macs on thursday with yaya and rara.
and on fri, went to aunt jenny's house and went shopping with rara.
instead the shopping turn out to be mostly eating.
sat. oh went to the gym at rosewood there, and headed to
church at two thanks to a sudden message from some fellow JC.
stayed all the way till Y.E!

oh and sunday!
woke up at 8 to help in con 2 class again,
went for a super long E.C from 1300 to 1730!
and stayed to help in the registration for carrom.
by the time i got home, it was 1930++
so i just eat, bathe and fell asleep!:)

ta-daa!
gonna meet my bimbo friend later!:D woots!

2010-05-27T21:21:00.002+08:00

hello world!
does things seems fine to you?
having a great time these past few days.
till a sudden dream, u can say its a nightmare too.
i donno, its like i'm drowning myself with songs
sung by linkin park!

my all time favorite band.
i think their songs make sense, and they link to how i feel at times.
like gow people ignore you.
they dont understand you.
and you only have urself to trust.
and at times, u don't feel belong.

HMMM.. MY RESULTS SUCKS!
and its saddening!
i need to buck up!
throw away distractions.
on the other hand, i need to also be more participative in church activities.

2010-05-24T23:03:00.001+08:00

THE PAST FEW DAYS HAVE BEEN GOOD!:)
I THINK SO! at least.

went to study with deb, pl, nat and dear raea came along:)
had a blast!, laugh till stomach hurt.
nothing much was complete though:(
guess we just need to stay focus next time round.
go somewhere with no distractions?
hahas!:)

had feast day stall meeting too,
EVERYTHING IS GOING OKAY!:)
YAY!

2010-05-21T23:24:00.003+08:00

hahahas! look at the two pic of my sister's and i.
the first pic was taken last year, the second was taken when i was in pri 5!
hahahs! what a huge difference right?

anyway, i need to buck up on my studies, i need a boost of motivation.
i need to treat people better.
i nee to do a lot of stuff to improve myself.
like seriously, I'm totally screwed up now:(

school has been kinda useless,
u sit there and rot 95 percent of the time.

2010-05-16T20:13:00.002+08:00

here it go go go go again!

have been studying with deb, ys, nat and pl on tues and wed!

THURS WAS THE BOMB BOMB!
went to marina barrage with pam, ys, joyce!
omg! we did like loads of cazyy stuff! and our cool video we made!
freaking fun! and i fell down!:(sad life of gen lai.
what else? i bought new clothes!

fri,
oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERI!
no school day! went out with evangeline, emmanuel and clarisson.
yup yup! then back to church for confirmation meeting!
and i receive homework:(

today!
JUNIOR CATS!
laugh till like mad!
STOP TICKLING ME, JU!
MY HEADBAND was so cool!

oh, and hahas! during the con two thingy,
thanks samuel, for detecting my price tag!
i forgot to cut it before i left house! hahahs

I'M COOL LIKE THAT!

2010-05-11T23:22:00.004+08:00

OMGGG!
today study outing turned out well! did a whole paper of a math!
went with brother ys, deb, pl and Natalie to macs we go!
hahahaahs! hilarious, i tell you. gossip gossip!
and ys, coloristtt!

hahas! hopefully thursday outing will be a success!:)
cant wait! who can fly a kite?
a soccer ball, Frisbee? volley ball? soft ball?
badminton? cloud gazing? what else man!??
we're so retarded!:)
hahas!
dressing up as tourist?

why are we thinking of making twit shirt?

PAM: THROW YOU OUT OF THE WINDOW!

GEN:ITS NOT FUNNY.

TERRY: WELL WELL WELL...

JOYCE: THIS KIND OF PEOPLE ARRR...

2010-05-09T22:19:00.002+08:00

hello once again,
spend my whole morning and afternoon in church:)
what a fabulous way to.
but but but... you know what? i;m having a hard time studying now!
gotta study bio and a math by tomorrow!?
heart, artery, plant cells, respiratory system, eyes,
polynomial, differentiation, surds!

OMGOSHH!
I'M LOOSING GRIP!
ahh! i need chill pills!
anyone have any?
pls be kind and share!:)

HMMM...
GUESS I'M GONNA BE STUDYING MAD TILL THURS,
SINCE I SCREWED UP THE REST OF THE PAPERS.
CAUSE I COULD NOT CONCENTRATE..

P.S life sucks, pls consult a councilor:)

2010-05-08T01:19:00.002+08:00

i'm left with a math, biology and chemistry exam papers!
i think the worst paper so far was... ...
i donno! like all not mention from the above?

i guess today is one of the better days i had with him,
after what had happen and all.
its not totally his fault or mine,
we cant put total blame on either side.

guess that, we just got to give and take.
nothing can ever totally go your way.
i mean, well.. life isnt fair right?

p.s was i wrong to do all those stuff?

2010-05-06T22:51:00.004+08:00

come on, gen!
wake up! and study!
you can do it!
stay focus!

AHHH! have been going to the library,
or some weird place to study!
well, i can rmb perfectly well that last year, i was with michelle almost all the way.
studying with her, exams after exams.
at times with her sis, yi mei, or even my sis.
those days were fun!

i miss you mich! come back!
laugh more with me! jokes and all!:)
we can share our secrets again!
how bout to the beach, at sentosa?
we're suppose to go there!!

not forgetting, i miss terry too!:)
come back soon, karaoke once again?
oh and what bout ice skating!
pepper lunch? hahahs!
and all our lame stuff we did in school?

2010-05-02T23:55:00.004+08:00

HELLO!
today's JCs lunch was fun!
we went to swensens.
and walk around popular for a quite awhile, looking at names.

but before that, we had to push the trolley that we borrowed from ntuc back,
and it was quite retarded. hahas! and the auntie there offered us cup noodles.
but we declined.

and finally that particular Easter programmed is over!
finally! after making so many boxes, its over!
yay! but where are we gonna do to those logistics stuff now?

2010-04-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

once again i'm back.
i thought i was gonna be gone for good this time round.

everything change,
my cell phone line and internet was being suspended.
i just guess, life aint fair.
you cant get everything you want.
it just doesn't goes your way.
just i got to make do with what i have.

dear God,
thank you for everything,
everything comes for a reason.
help me to accept everything.
thanks.

2010-04-17T11:15:00.002+08:00

sports day.
it was pouring.
turning my smile into a frown.
what a way to enjoy .

the field was so muddy and it made its way into my one and only dirty looking converse.

catherine house, second place anyway.
what a day. what a day.

headed to terry house with joyce and ys.
had lunch at coronation plaza.
kinda got loads of catching up to do.
off to terry house to watch a movie and to stalk people on fb.
it was hilarious. and the ishape thingy was so wobbly.
then the pics turn out shaky!

it started drizzling, and KA BOOM!
here come the rain again.
rush to church, got splash by the cars on the road.
was drench, dirty, and gross.
reached church and there was only me and him.
so father canceled the meeting.
what a life!

2010-04-13T23:06:00.003+08:00

here i am, once again.
I'm torn into pieces? issit?
don't rmb larrs..

anyway TAD was fun fun!
played loads of simple plan songs with nia nia and danni.
so cool! then when macs to chitt- chatt with friends.
i miss the old times loads.
i miss playing around in ikea, going movies with you guys.
and our notebook:(

i wanna turn back time.
someone, help?

btw,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY
STUPID LITTLE (huge) BRO YS!
HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY
TO PAMELA GIAN:)

2010-04-08T21:10:00.002+08:00

i was brought up to never to thrust someone completely,
i was persevered by myself to find out what actually did happen.

thus,
UNCLARITY left me hanging for a couple of days
but when
TRUTH came out
and when
LIES were just removed.
i just felt HURT.

theres a saying that second chances do work wonders,
however after so many dozens it might just be a waste.

think again people, if you loved someone so much, after zillion and zillion of chances.
will one last one really hurt you?

this time round, I'm serious.
i cant stand anymore monkey business.
one more time and everything is over.
unless you wanna end it right now.
its up to you.

thanks______ for helping me out, to look deeper.

2010-03-30T22:24:00.003+08:00

back from malacca two days back.
lets just say, it was another family oriented kind of outing.
nothing much i can do to make it fun to my expectations. besides, its only malaysia right?
hmm..did some sight-seeing which was pretty cool the skys are nice unlike singapore's which is covered by many tall buildings.
malacca has great tasting authentic pereanakan, unlike the once you find in singapore.
they uses real herbs and spices. a great recomandation is " aunty nancy resturaunt"

hmm they have good chicken rice ball too "famosa" something something.
their chicken rice balls are small and cute. while singapore has those fat and round ones.
malacca's are easy to chew and more bite-size!

nothing much to shop there, unless ur talking bout groceries
or some accesories which can be found in jonkers street. which is like a night market or also known as pasam malam.

hmm, schools been going okay,
i'm trying to be a good girl by sleeping earlier.
to pay more attention in class!:)

2010-03-26T10:21:00.003+08:00

SCHOOL HAS BEEN FUNNEH!

PLAYING, GOSSIPING, RANDOMNESS!
asda,asda,asda.

ys, our specs are cool, but mines cooler.
joyce, tsk tsk!
pam c, i aint no mushroom,
pam g, what larrs?
nell, i'm not you.
yaya, aint a bitch here.
nettie, yes yes! i can see the light!
niania, dance dance.
viavia, SHOP!

*terry, i do have time for you.

theres so much to say, so little time. lols.

kaes, while my dearest friends are in school studying,
doing a maths killing their braincells,
eating sucky school food.

i'm at home slacking, waiting, watching
for time to pass. listening to music! ahh!
FIREFLIES!

had PTC yesterday,
and you know what i got no As for anything
thats sad, but i finally pass s.s.
a math improved too!:)

kaes, off to celebrate grandma's birthday!

will miss you guys. NOT!
k k, jokes. hehes^^

2010-03-12T21:37:00.002+08:00

efl was okay!
effing bitch, dont anyhow push me!
something will happen to you, i'll make sure of that.
revenge is sweet:)

had a blast today at ikea with joyce, ys and pammie! freakin funny!
couldn't even eat properly.
went to walk around at anchor point. spent so long in one little tiny shop with ys.
reading funny quotes:)

TAD rehearsal was a waste of time. guitar cant be heard:(
band is like the only group playing, like seriously.
waste my effort practicing the song, my fingertips hurt D:

shopping with via via was extremely fun!
din really shop much cause of e heels:((
tea party:)
hahahas mh tag along, somehow bump into her.
did my toe nails:)

i'm too lazy to spare you the details.

asda later, anyone?

i wanna give up!
teach me how?
leopard printss

2010-03-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

GONE TOMORROW!
WILL BE BACK FRIDAY EVENING!:)

2010-03-08T22:45:00.001+08:00

HEY HEY! WELCOME!

i pass a maths ca1!

on sunday, during junior cats. father gave us a very weird worksheet!

do u guys agree? the one bout business man, someone and police!

lols! damn retarded! almost all the answers were ?

hahas!

school was retarded today!, it was damn fun!

and hilarious?

eh ys and pam. i dont really get how to play that game??

damn!

rara, u owe me something!

i want my letter!:))

2010-03-01T22:23:00.002+08:00

first day of ca1, i'm still not in the mood to study.
i bought a new music player after 497534965349 years.

life has been up and down,
must i repeat myself again?
UP AND DOWN, UP AND DOWN!
bloody hell! why cant it be UP all the way?

i'm trying to change, like seriously?
but something is just floating in my mind.
its not me, if i change?
will this ever work out?

AHH! CHEM paper tomorrow,
thats a confirm plus guaranteed chop failure.
i better get back to studying.

dear god, pls save me from this madness,
i need you by my side,always.